Mad but Magic: Gayle Forman

In #FridayFeels we leave plot analysis for other posts and focus on the kick in the feels.

Have you seen the movie trailer for If I Stay? This has been one of my favorite YA/NA books for two years now and I already know (combined with TFIOS) this is going to be the summer for weeping at movie theaters. Trying to explain this book to someone who hasn’t read it (“Well, you see, it’s about a girl having an out-of-body experience and reflecting on her life… awesome, right?”) but Gayle Forman can just reach inside my chest cavity and twist in a way few authors can.

As someone really close with my family, and as someone who thinks a lot about loss, Mia’s reflections hit deep. The most hurtful things about loss isn’t usually the moment of loss itself, but the bleak outlook on every day of life afterwards; the void that will gape every time someone should be there and isn’t.

Feelings in this book might also stem from the fact that Gayle can write the most sensual hand-hold I've ever read.

Happy Friday!

-Kate

Gayle Forman has yet to disappoint me. I find myself much less interested in what happens as whom it happens to. This author has a real gift for creating well-rounded, believable characters.

I want to be on a European train when I look at this cover

In a short time, I get to know her characters really well. How long did we spend with Babs? Or Wren? Or Dee? And yet these minor characters are as vivid (sometimes more vivid) than main characters I've spent an entire series with. And this is because Gayle Forman writes characters, not vessels that the reader just injects themselves into. This technique makes it very frustrating when a character makes a decision I would not make. This character is supposed to be me, but I'm not that stupid! When Allyson frustrated me (or her mother, or Melanie, or Celine, etc.) I at least knew why she was choosing what she chose. Because she is her own character. Forman has given me enough background to understand Allyon's thought process and appreciate her feelings.

I'm also deeply impressed by Allyson's character evolution. I've read books where the author tries to show her character has evolved and changed based on her experiences, but it feels sudden; out of place; forced. I hate that. Nothing about Allyson felt forced. She still failed. She backed down. but we could sense her growing resistance and frustration, so when she finally spoke out against her mother (not, perhaps, in the most tactful way, but definitely in an understandable way) it felt so right. Her actions had been building over the course of the novel. Forman laid solid foundation for Allyon's evolution.

While I'm a sucker for romance, it made me so happy that the focus of the book was on self-discovery. Sure, the catalyst was that day in Paris with Willem, but Allyson was very aware throughout the novel that she was very much searching for Lulu; she was searching for herself. Maybe it's because that's the place I'm in my life. I have this really deep urge to get out, go away, see what's out there. I deeply desire to travel by myself and therefore have a deeper understanding of myself. I found that very satisfying in this novel. (Sidenote: in many ways this novel makes me think of The Alchemist- listening to the universe! You will fave adversity, but the universe will give you the signs and nudges and help to make your dreams come true! But you need to be willing to put in the effort and pay the consequences.)

I am so glad I read this book now and not a few months ago. I'm not sure I could wait that long for the sequel. As it is I am waiting impatiently for the library to present me with a borrowed copy! My guess: Willem had another run-in with the skinheads.